Date: 25th January 2020 Location: The Northern Territory, Australia
Jason looked solemn.
He was very quiet for a long time and Julie was not sure whether to say anything or just sit and keep him company. As a reporter, it was not in her habit to just sit quietly.
His mood had been sombre since they had left the room with the others and she guessed it had been something Pietta had said to him. She knew and accepted how much Pietta meant to him, even though over the last year, Jason and she had become lovers. It was not really a secret and Pietta had been the first to see right through their initial attempts to hide the affair.
She moved closer to Jason and put her hand gently on the side of his face. He looked around and smiled. His eyes glowed a strong emerald green. As long as she had known him and as close as they had become, she could never get used to the shifting shades of green in his eyes.
"Are you okay," she asked softly?
There was a short poignant poise and he smiled again, placed his hand gently on hers and nodded his head slightly a yes.
"Pietta told me she planned not to come back to the city," he finally said, softly.
"Will she be okay," Julie asked, genuine in her concern?
"I am not sure but I am pretty sure we will never see her again."
She was not sure what to say. What could she say? You can't say it will all be okay, when in fact the outside world could virtually end and you could lose one of your closest friends forever. It just wasn't going to be okay.
Jason finally spoke as he looked directly into her eyes.
"I did not tell you or the others everything."
She looked at him but again the appropriate words failed to find her lips.
"I didn't think I should tell you all everything, but with you, it has always been very different. In you I find myself and I can't help but feel I am meant to tell you everything."
Julie felt his sincerity, she knew his love and she had always felt exactly the same way about him.
"I want you to tell me," she said, "no matter how terrible it is."
"Funny, but it's not all that terrible and in a way, for me anyway, I find it comforting," he replied, almost immediately, "but you must understand, no matter how wild it may seem, this is the reality and it really is so fantastic you probably will never be able to tell anyone else."
"I promise," she said, even though she knew deep down she was still at heart a journalist and may not be able to suppress her professional obligation.
In a way, Jason, though sometimes acting naive, knew that what he told others would be used and accepted exactly the way the Universe expected and planned it, and nothing he did or could do would make any difference.
"As I said before, ‘the Darkness’ came to me in Siem Reap and spent what seemed like an entire night, but could have been an entire lifetime, talking to me."
Julie wrapped her arm around his and pulled in close to him, not looking at his eyes, but close enough to hear the constant steady heartbeat from his chest. They had spent many evenings curled up together just like this and Jason would talk for hours about business, or the world, or his thoughts, and she would just love to listen and feel his warmth. Jason knew she was listening now, as she always did.
"This time the Darkness told me something about existence that although I presumed he would one day, I never expected to learn such knowledge until I was about to die. I thought such knowledge was the privilege of Gods and not mere mortals like me, and to be honest, it even shocked me a bit."
"You're hardly a mere mortal Jason King," said Julie, without lifting her head and although sincere, it had a bit of a mocking tone to it.
Jason smiled. He always tried to be modest and Julie rarely ever let him get away with it. It was true though, Jason did not think of himself as anything other than a privileged person to have such knowledge, but there was no doubt in his mind he was mortal.
"Come on tell me," she said, digging him playfully in the ribs.
"Our world is not as real as we think it is," he said suddenly and stopped.
She lifted her head and looked into his eyes.
"What do you mean it's not real,” she asked, although she was not sure she wanted the answer?
"We have created the timeline we live on and everything in it."
She continued to stare at him and he continued to talk.
"Yes there was a past world and there is a universe that has been around forever, but the laws that govern these two phenomena did not exist before humanity. It was all utter chaos, and I mean that seriously, there was no order. Nothing meant anything. There has long been a discussion over what existed first matter or energy. The Big Bang theory creates an unresolvable argument that from nowhere matter was created by a burst of significant energy at a point called the singularity."
He stopped for a moment as if to gather his thought. She noticed that he had what seemed like a shadow over his face. His normally fair skin and ageless complexion seemed to have taken on age all of a sudden.
"The reality is that long before that there existed a thought. We as humans think of thought as ideas, feelings etc., that we create as a result of stimulation, when in fact, thought is what we and everything else is made of. The Darkness, my eternal mentor, is a thought. Could be my thought alone, but it seems not likely. More likely he is a cumulative shared thought that we all have made up from that initial thought that existed before anything else did."
From the look on Julie's face, he could tell he had lost her.
"A thought, as closely as we as humans can describe it, is energy but it is not like any energy we understand. It has no measure or body, and it is not made from any tangible substance, yet it exists. It is the inspiration for everything we are, have been and ever will be. Thought created everything we know and is as close to a God as we can ever imagine a God to be. It is the substance of the Darkness and it is a part of the energy we can't see in the Universe. The thought created law and order, in a metaphysical sense. It created an environment and then attached a virus to it. It then watched that virus grow and when the virus got to the perfect shape and form that the thought had imagined, it came and gave that shape an internal adaption. That small change was a slight modification to our DNA that would be transmitted throughout this new species. From then on and forever, the thoughts of that new species created laws and brought order to chaos."
Julie interrupted him.
"But you said before that we had souls and there were time spirals and all these things that existed were the reason we were here and...," she stopped, looking confused and searched Jason's face for some sort of answer.
Jason touched her gently and realized how much more of a burden he had now created for her. He wondered if he had done the right thing telling her more. He had started now and he could not just leave it there.
"Yes darling, I did," he continued, "but it was only a part of the truth."
He lifted the top part of her body so he was supporting her and could look directly into her face.
"Let’s call the Universe everything that exists, including thought. The Universe has only two basic laws. One that there are no laws that can't be changed and second that thought can change them. ‘The Darkness’ creature is raw thought and it has no real substance as it is as near as we are able to understand a type of natural energy. You must then believe that there is no such thing as time and what we think is the beginning can also be the end. Just like when you think of where you would like to go for a holiday and imagine yourself sitting on a beach and then later you are. This universal thought created a virus and then added a soul. The soul was what made us different. It was a function of being able to create new thoughts. The virus developed and then began to create its own thoughts which in turn created what we now know as time, and that has now become our reality. We inadvertently created the time helixes in this Universe because we created alternatives and thus alternative outcomes. Without even realizing it, this species was building the Universe it lived in. It created its history and its future. It did not even realize that it was doing these things and it thought that the reality it was creating always existed. We are that species and as individuals, our thoughts are shared and interlinked without us even realizing it. We have this amazing power that can make anything happen. It is, however, beyond the ability of anyone individual to control this universal building power, but as a group, we do it every day. Stock market fluctuations, wild storms, catastrophe, even life, and death. Ironically, when it comes to the argument of religion creating life or science creating life, both are correct as both are created by our thoughts and it is only thought that is the limitation."
Julie had a tear growing slowly in the corner of her eye and she awkwardly wiped it with the back of her hand. Jason thought she looked like a little child and realized what humanity must look like to ‘The Darkness’.
He continued gently pulling her back into his chest.
"These are all things we have grown to regard as necessary because we made them necessary as a species. We needed Gods, wars, machines, and even poverty and sadness. It was our way of explaining everything. It was our way of justifying our needs. ‘The Darkness’ watched over us the whole time and not only was it part of our very first thought, as that is essentially what it is, it also encouraged us to think more. We even created our future because, in reality, our future is as much a part of the present as it is our past, that’s just the order we as humans put everything into. Every variable of our future is possible and all of them exist in all the billions of helix that make up what we call time. Some of our future fathers even created time travel and since time did not really exist, as we had created it, it was relatively easy for them, they just needed an important enough reason to do it. What better reason than the preservation of the species?"
He heard her speak softly, like a small child in his arms.
"But why? What is the reason?"
"If you think of the Universe as just a process of thought, but intelligent thought, then it is not so hard to imagine that the original thought decided that thinking of order and creating it was desirable. There were dangers in that, one being over creation. So to protect the evolving order from an overzealous development, we were wired deliberately to only use a small portion of our brain. This would gradually change and increase as we become more aware and responsible. Imagine giving a new baby a knife. It is more than likely that the new baby would injure or kill itself. But if we give that knife to an older more mature human, it could and should use the knife more productively. We are still a very young virus in this Universe and still way too immature to understand the implications of what we do and what we can do."
Julie seemed to be comforted by the analogy.
"We actually create theories like Big Bang because they suit us and if we can work out an explanation as to what came before that, we will and it will become reality. Why? It is essential for this entity called ‘the Darkness’ to have 'order' in its effort to grow and we create that 'order' for it. We are like the builders creating its environment. Yes, it sounds all back-to-front of what we believe but then truth often belays reality."
Julie held him tighter.
"It explains allot though," she said softly, "if everything you say is true, it explains why the power of thought can do such amazing things. Why the group working together can achieve miracles. Why such strange things happen, just as you think about them."
"Yes," joined in Jason, "and why what would seem to be a complex Universe is proving to be quite solvable to humans. We are creating the foundations of its existence, its growth till now and its future."
"Do you think others are beginning to realize something of what you say," she asked?
Jason smiled thinking she sounded more like a reporter again.
"We are not all completely ignorant of the whole truth," Jason replied, feeling happier he had someone to talk to about it. Someone that was human.
"There are many organizations working on the power of the mind, there is research into memes, looking for an explanation of why as a society, suggestion and thought can change our beliefs whether it is real or not. And I know of a few books written by some great thinking minds of our century that suggest that we might be a creation of our personal beliefs and thoughts."
"So why," she asked, "why tell you? What are we meant to do with this knowledge?"
She felt Jason take a deep breath and then breathe out.
"It's complex and yet it’s simple," he finally said, " I did not notice how the Darkness spoke to me at first, in fact, I was so young I thought nothing of it, but as I got older I used to find it curious and now I know what it was that was so unusual and why."
She sat up and looked at him. He did not look back at her but seemed to be looking into the distance as if he saw something she did not.
"How did he speak to you," she asked?
"That’s just it, he never spoke to me, it was always just a thought."
He looked at her.
"We are not meant to tell anyone darling, it is meant to be written down and as more people read it over a long period of time, the more will believe and gradually, we will be able to use our ability to create and bring order to chaos knowingly."
"What you and I write it down?"
"No darling it is already written down, that’s how we came to be."
She looked at him with concern.
"You’re saying we don't exist."
"Oh no, we exist and the blood I have bled is real blood and pain we suffer is a real pain, but it has been thought of by someone else to make it a reality."
"Who?"
"Whoever thought of us, whoever wrote all this down, whoever believed enough to make what they wrote a reality? Of course, it is a reality because it was true."
Now Julie looked sad again.
"You see darling, the Darkness is a thought and that’s why it does not speak and I hear it as a thought. It is a strong thought, but it is my thought, the reality comes when we all have thoughts that are similar. By someone telling this story, hopefully, it will spread to millions of people and then it too will become a reality. He smiled at her.
"Don't you see, we will go through everything that is coming because we created it and we will survive as we expect too, but when a sufficient number of us will understand what I have just told you, we will be able to use it to create our own pathway. We won’t need Gods or demons and we will no longer need 'The Darkness', we will become the creators."
The thought of that terrified her and Jason could see it in her eyes.
"It's a long way off darling and we will be a very different race by then. Far less greedy and warlike I am sure, but thought must start somewhere."
"And we are the beginning of the thought," she said, almost to herself, "or I should say whoever thought of us is the beginning of the thought."
She stretched up and kissed him on the lips. He responded by taking the nape of her neck in his hands and pulling her into him. The kiss was long, and when she did pull back, just a breath from his face, she softly spoke.
"I hope this is where whoever thought of us wants us to make love."
Jason smiled.
"Our destiny was to be together, long before we were even a thought."
He kissed her again and this time they fell into each other's rapture and made love. Julie could feel Jason deep inside her and thanked her creator for the love she now felt and hoped that her thoughts could give them the children she so longed for.
Chapter seventy two
The Darkness
See I am coming soon;
My reward is with me,
To repay according to everyone’s work. I am the Alpha and the Omega, The first and the last,
The beginning and the end.
John Revelation 22:13
Christopher Golde